16 DISEMBER 2010...
pgi2 da bgon oteh kejot suoh teman mak p hospital...rase mcm plik ble tbe2 mak ajk p hosptl..bb mak memg xnk p hosptl slalunyer..bb dy taw msty skit t kne ccuk sne sni...ak pn bgon n siap2...bju mak da siap kmas da tkot kne than wad..mak asik sempot sjak kblakangn ni...bdn pn pns jer...skit tak tpkir..bb lpas mak p brubat mak sihat kmbli ok..bole wt keje sume..mask kn tok ak p keje...pdhl malm td mak da p hsptal msok oksigen...abh pn blek...twos bwk mak p hosptl...smpai kt hsptal,,mak msok oksgen 2x...tp xkurg jgak...dlm 3 4 jam lpas tu..dokter ckp mak kne than...mak da bring ats ktil kt wad kcmasan...n msk air...abh blek dlu t ptg dtg g...ak pn jge mak kt wad...
tgahari tu,,,bdn mak sgt pns...mak sspek dggi...dkter ckp bwu sspek..tp xkne lgi....lpas mkn2 pe sume...ak bgi mak makn ubt...n mak tdo..agknyer ngntok da mkn ubt...smpai ptg fmly n snak saudara dtg mlwat....riuh mak bborak...mcm xskit....air da msok 4 btol da..pnas xtron2 ag...lpas wktu mlawat da abes...sume blek..tgl ak n mak jer...mak ckp mak nk mandi.bdn pnas sgt.g pn dkter da psan...mandi jer bia pns kua..ak pn mandikan mak...ak memg xbole biakn mak wt sowg2.sume ak wtkn...pas mandi mak makn lagi..mak mkn byk...n then mak tdo....pndek kate,,,mak xbyk ckp sgt..mak asik makn n tdo...tgah2 mlm lak,,bdn mak pns blek..ak lapkan bdn mak nan kain..bia kurg skt...mak tdo nan nyeyak.ak ta tdo..rsau tgk mak..g pn tdo ats krusi....xslesa....
17 DISEMBER 2010
sprti biase bgon pgi...bli sarapn..mandikan mak..bdakkn mak...suapkan mak sume bawu mak tdo blek....mak mkn nsi lmak tlor tu smpai abes...sdp tkak mak mkn gaknyer...mak tdo...tgahari wktu mlawt akk2 n abh sume ad dtg mlawt...mak uda,mak ngah.....rami sgt y dtg mlawat mak...mak riuh bborak...mcm bse..mak memg pramah....ktawe2 nan kteowg...sownok mse tu bb tgk mak memg chat...cm xde pape pn....mak ckp xpe,,,ari SABTU mak blek t...mak lyn sume y dtg...ccu2 sume dy tgk dr tgkap jer....bb bdk2 xley masok.....suke mak sume dtg...slang bbrape jam,,,wktu mlawat da bes tok tgahari...kteowg p bnda...bb mak soh bli suar,bdak,,mandian tok dy....kteowg pn bli la...wktu mlawt ptg lak,,,fmly msok lagi...xblek lgi...sempat mak krm bntal busok dy...syg sgt bntal busok dy tu...xbole xbwk...ble da duk rami2...ktawe2 nan mak..tgk mke mak tsengih...ske sgt mase tu.mak da chat....dkter pn ckp dmam da xde...nmpknyer mak da chat....mse mlwat ptg da abes...sume blek slam nan mak...tp mak nak xnk lpaskn tgn ank2 mak...mak slam nan abh...nmpk mke mak lain mse slam nan abh..mak sempat mtk maap kt abh...mak soh abh hlalkn makn mnom mak slame nie...abh da rase laen p abh xnk pk....tgah2 dowg bjaln kuar tglkn ak n mak,,,mak renung smpai dowg kuar pntu...mak mcm brat aty nk lpaskn dowg...malm tu,,,nk tdo....mak plik xcm slalu...mak xgne pn bntal busok dy tu...sbole2 soh ak pkai bntal tu..dy ckp..skt pgg ko cik tdo xde bntal..ambik bntal mak ni..amek la..tp ak tanak...xpela,,mak gne la....bntal mak...pastu dy bgi lagi...mak renung mke owg lame2....mcm plik sgt...tp ta tpk pn....
18 DISEMBER 2010
Bgon pgi....mandikan mak mcm bse...rini mak mandi awl bb dkter nk dtg check...mse mndikan mak,,mak sempat ckp...sush kn ko je cik,,pnat ko jge mak,,mandikn mak pe sume...xpela mak,,,,mak kn mak owg...xpela,,,owg syg mak....xksah...berak pn owg tmankn mak..tanak pape jdik kt mak...dmi mak kn..mse mak hdp la owg nk jge mak...lpas mandikan mak,,,owg pkaikn mak bdak bwu..tu...bdak tu wangi.tp mak ckp bsuk sgt...pkai skt jer...pastu mak da lpak da...nk tdo..ak pkaikn la losyen bb tgk kaki mak klit cm kring...da mengelupas...mak syap myb mak pnat nk tdo....mse mlwat tgahari sdare dtg mlawat mak wt bodo jer...agpn ak mak pnat nk tdo...xpela...dtg spupu ak,,,tbe2 jam 2 mak mgeram pgl name ALLAH2 byk kali..ak jdik tpranjt tbe2 jer....mak,,npe ni??mak jwg mse tu..mak xde pape...tp bdn mak lmah sgt...nurse dtg....tny knpe...pastu nurse msokn ubt kt air mak,,tbe2 mak pengsan.!mak bgon mak.....npe ni??mak da lembik...panik.panik sgt mase tu..Ya ALLAH tlgla slmtkn mak...dkter sume da krumun mak..fmly sume da tpn...sume on da wey...mane ni..ak da rse lmah..tanak pk bnd y bkn2...
lpas satu jam...
dkter pgl....dkter tny pe sume..sblom mcm ni mcm tu...ak pn jwb la..pastu...dkter ckp:
" maaf,,mak awk tak dpt dslamatkn dik...maaf"
ya ALLAh ..tak,,,mcm bwu jap ak ckp nan dy..cptnyer..sklip mate Tuhan nk mek...abh n fmly sume bwu smpai mse dkter ckp nan ak...
ABAH n FMLY: achik,,mak cne???
AKU: mak DA XDE...ak tak dpt tahan...ak mlalak kt situ jgak...nurse dtg sbarkn ak...tp ak xbole.mcm hlg jantong ak mse tu..YA ALLAH...Dugaan ni sgt brat tok ak.!
ABAH: mila,,mila...bgon mila....smbil mngis...
fmly sume da smpai,,sume pegi kt mak..mak da sjok sluroh bdn...mak da pegi....kami adk bradik krumun mak....bce ysin..mcm xpcye mak da xde...tbyg mak ad....
wndu kt mak...wndu sgt.wndu nk plok mak.wndu nk salam tgn mak..mak..mane mak...owg nk plok mak...
mak..owg slalu ingt pe y mak pesan...bktikan pd owg len y wt achik cne...yup mak..achik ingt...mak kt cne doakn owg erk...mak tetp dlm hati..syg mak sgt....dmi mak,,,satu hari owg akn lakukan bnd tue....dmi mak....dmi mak..syg mak.hukhuk=(
al-fatihah tu my mum....
SEMOGE MAK TENANG DICANE...
OWG TAW MAK TENANG DCANE....
MAK SYUM MSE MAK NK DLTAKN KT BWH TU..
MKE MAK CNTIK MCM MAK TDO..
RASE NK KEJOT MAK MSE TU..
TP MAK DA SJOK SLUROH BDN...
MSE TU HRAP SGT..MAK BGON BLEK...TP X..
MAK CNTIK SAGT...CNTIK SGT...
HRP MAK DTMPTKN DKLANGN OWG Y BRIMAN...
HRP TUHAN KUATKN SMGT KAMI SKLUARGA..
HLGNYE IBUNDA YANG TERSAYG...
HLGNYER SOWG IBU Y SLALU MMRAHI ANK2 DMI KBAIKN KMI..
THNX MAK LHIRKN KAMI KT DNIE..
THNX MAK SGOP BKORBAN DMI ANAK2...
SYG MAK.WNDU MAK,NK PLOK MAK.
THNX ATS NSHT MAK...
KAMI AKN JGE BAK...MAK JGN WISAU...
MCM MANE KAMI JGE MAK MACM TULA KAMI JGE BAK...
OWG REDHA TP OWG SUSH NK TIME...
RSE MCM BWU SMLM BDAKKAN MAK...
SUMPAH.! WNDU SGT KAT MAK...
AL-FATIHAH...
